I remember the first time I ever heard Anberlin, was in 2007 and the first song that I heard was “Symphony Of Blasé”. This song got stuck in my mind and I used to listen Never Take a Friendship Personal for hours and hours. In that time I knew that Anberlin would be my favorite band. At my 15 years old party, I put “Symphony Of Blasé” to play. This was just one of the unforgettable moments that Anberlin brought to me.
I always had some problems with myself and I couldn’t talk to anyone cause I’m really bad with words, so for every moment in my life a song of Anberlin just “saved me”. When I was at my worst and I thought that there wasn’t any reason to be alive, I put my headphones on and I listened Stephen singing “don’t drop your arms, I’ll guard your heart” and this made me stop for a while and think about my life, how much my life worth.
I remember the first time I saw Anberlin live, it was in 2010 in São Paulo. I was so nervous! When the introducing song started, I started to scream and my hands couldn’t stop shaking. I sang along every song, and at the end of the show I was amazed.
I love all these guys, but Stephen is like my hero. All the things he write and does and how he faces life is just inspiring. I remember when I met him at the first time, this was last year in the second time that Anberlin came to Brazil and the second time I saw them live, and I was so nervous that I couldn’t speak. I just walked in his direction and I hugged him without saying anything. He was so kind with me - a strange girl who didn’t talk anything - that after this I sat and cried.
The show was incredible, the best show of my whole life. This was their second show in the weekend, and in the first I couldn’t talk with them. That day was my last chance of trying to talk with all the band, so me and my friends went to their hotel and we waited about an hour to see them. When they came, again, I was so nervous that I couldn’t say a word. After some minutes, I was repeating ”thank you, thank you so much for everything” and Stephen told me: “Hey, I remember you!”. I almost died! My idol recognized me! We took some photos together and again he was so kind, so attentive with the fans who were there… This made me admire him so much more!
After that unforgetable weekend, I decided to make my first tattoo. I’ve tattoed “Laugh, love, live free & sing” and the key of “Lost Songs”. It was my way to always have Anberlin with me. Some months later, I decided to get another tattoo, this time I wanted to honor my parents, so I’ve tattoed their initials and “I’ll guard your heart”. This phrase has a double meaning, because besides to honor my parents is also part of one of the songs that gives me more strength when I need to.
I met incredible friends through Anberlin, friends I want to take my whole life. These are people who like me have had their lives changed in some way by this band.
After all this, I feel blessed by have Anberlin in my life. All they brought to me are good things. I feel really sad about their breaking up, but I can understand that they have their own lives and they need move on.
For one more time, THANK YOU ANBERLIN! Even all that I wrote here isn’t enough to show you how I’m grateful for all that you’ve done in my life. I can’t wait for this last album and this tour. Don’t forget to come to Brazil for “our last goodbye”.
Christian, Joseph, Nate, Stephen and Deon: Godspeed in this new journey!
My “new” tattoo with Anberlin lyrics.
"Don’t drop your arms, I’ll guard your heart."
It’s hard to choose my favorite song of Anberlin, but “The Unwinding Cable Car” it’s really special for me ‘cause helped me a lot of times when I was at my worst.